Longing for unknown

Yay, I've almost recovered from the cold I had. I once read that you get a cold/flu or something like that when you take offence at something. Well, in this case, I did. I'll try not to do that again. Lately, my schedules and plans have been extremely messed up. By myself. I'm in this really weird situation where I haven't graduated high school yet, but I'm already studying at university. Luckily, I don't have much school at this point. In next September, I'll have 2 final exams. which I hope to pass. I'm more worried about being able to attend university stuff more. I hope I get things done properly. For your information, I'm studying to become a professional musician - a cellist to be more accurate. This autumn I have a huge pile of rather pointless performances which take time and give me practically nothing in exchange. I guess I'm a bit too nice and accept every offer I get... but then again, that's what it is to be a musician, like it or not. No point in complaining. I'd really like to participate in a competition next November in order to stay motivated. Plus, I'd get to travel. Travelling is something I'd really love to do more (oh well, who doesn't?). In few months we'll be going to Berlin with my family. Although, I hope we don't have to stick together whole time, it would be nice to explore the city alone or with my sister, too. That way I'd get to say more in pur plans. I usually don't get to say anything... Next summer would also be cool to travel more. Backpacking, perhaps? I have all thse ideas and hopes and dreams but on the other hand, I hate to plan thing forward. I'm way too spontaneous for that. For example, every time we travel somewhere with other people, I'm most likely the last person who starts packing. About 30 minutes before leaving I start to grab things that I suppose I could need on my trip. Maybe not that smart way to live, but it makes me happy and I wouldn't have it any other way. Well, once again I post something not very particular or meaningful, but that's me. Cope with it :) I'll try to write soon again. Love, Greta