Longing for unknown

Yay, I've almost recovered from the cold I had. I once read that you get a cold/flu or something like that when you take offence at something. Well, in this case, I did. I'll try not to do that again. Lately, my schedules and plans have been extremely messed up. By myself. I'm in this really weird situation where I haven't graduated high school yet, but I'm already studying at university. Luckily, I don't have much school at this point. In next September, I'll have 2 final exams. which I hope to pass. I'm more worried about being able to attend university stuff more. I hope I get things done properly. For your information, I'm studying to become a professional musician - a cellist to be more accurate. This autumn I have a huge pile of rather pointless performances which take time and give me practically nothing in exchange. I guess I'm a bit too nice and accept every offer I get... but then again, that's what it is to be a musician, like it or not. No point in complaining. I'd really like to participate in a competition next November in order to stay motivated. Plus, I'd get to travel. Travelling is something I'd really love to do more (oh well, who doesn't?). In few months we'll be going to Berlin with my family. Although, I hope we don't have to stick together whole time, it would be nice to explore the city alone or with my sister, too. That way I'd get to say more in pur plans. I usually don't get to say anything... Next summer would also be cool to travel more. Backpacking, perhaps? I have all thse ideas and hopes and dreams but on the other hand, I hate to plan thing forward. I'm way too spontaneous for that. For example, every time we travel somewhere with other people, I'm most likely the last person who starts packing. About 30 minutes before leaving I start to grab things that I suppose I could need on my trip. Maybe not that smart way to live, but it makes me happy and I wouldn't have it any other way. Well, once again I post something not very particular or meaningful, but that's me. Cope with it :) I'll try to write soon again. Love, Greta

From the Beginning

Hi! It's my first post on this blog, yay! I actually had one before but I thought I need a fresh start, so here I am. What am I gonna write about? Everything I want. I'd hate to get stuck on one theme (not that there's anythnig wrong with a certain theme, not at all!) so I'm just going to watch and see. I love to write. I wouldn't want to describe myself directly, not only because I suck at it, but also because I find it more sincere and honest if you make your assumptions and conclusions by deciding over my texts. Fair? I hope so. That way I won't create any pictures of who I am not. At this point I think it would be nice to warn you that I'm not a native English speaker. Therefore, I hope you'll understand the possible grammar mistakes I might be making. I'll try my best! About the title of this blog... hmmm... it's probably not very unique, interesting or anything, but as lame as it sounds, it kind of represents my thoughts and what I consider an ideal way of living. I'm tired of whining about how summer's over and winter is coming. And when I start feeling bad on spring when I think that soon there'll be summer that'll be over one day. And I also hate it when other people do that. It's pathetic. And I want to get rid of it. At some point I tried to find something great in every week so that I had something to expect every week. I don't know why I stopped doing that. Surely the great things still exist? I have decided to love this moment. No matter how crappy it is. Even now, I have a minor flu and it's a real pain in neck. But the sun is shining, though. And as I get better, I want to go biking. Or something. For now, I think that's all I want to say and I try to write soon again. Love, Greta